It seems the chain mail and note regarding about the fake virus it's spreading again, and I get like 3 notes per day with the same stuff, so please, PLEEEAAAAAASE stop sending me more notes about the goddamn virus!
First thing, the virus IS NOT REAL, ok? it's just a scam.
So I'm sorry but the next note or comment I get with the same subject I will report it as spam because I'm tired. It's been more than a year since it started spreading and it seems people hasn't learn the lesson yet, im grateful for the warnings but yeah, this one is FAKE. Thank you and have a nice day

hey there, I just thought i could update the journal because i never do, so yeah, anyways I'm feeling much better now, I'm getting back my inspiration somehow, even thought I had some problems with some people recently :/ I'm drawing stuff that is not really special but I do it anyways. Still I'm not really confident to post my latest pics on DA...to be honest, I'm scared :S because I had a lot of trouble with people lately and I'm really scared...I don't wanna be acussed again of something I didn't do, neither I want more complaints or comparisons or people telling me what I will have to draw or not...so for now I won't post anything untill I think it's worthy to be posted here or i feel like I'm ready to post it meanwhile you can have a look at my Twitpic account, I'm uploading some stuff there. You can find it here: [link]
Also, I wanna thank the wonderful people who is helping me and caring about me too
to name a few, and the rest too, i love you guys ^^ thanks for the support always. Also for some reason I'm on a cooking mood lately and I'm baking cakes like a mad D: but that cheered me up. Well that's all for now, be all well.

PS: I'm having troubles with the DA layout I can't seem to put the journal on my frontpage, neither I can have the Sitback Slideshow running...I tried contacting the helpdesk and they said the tech support is working about it, but I didn't hear anything about them in more than a month...is anyone else having the same problem?

It's been a while since I did a meme...so here I go. Stolen from


001. Real name? Estela
002. Nickname(s)? Felicia-Val, Feli, Fel, Stella
003. Zodiac sign? Aquarius
004. Male or female? Female
005. Elementary? Don't wanna talk about it
006. Middle School? Same as before.
007. High School? ...I think you know the answer already.
008. Hair color? Dark Brown. But I dyed it in so many colours I can't even remember if my natural hair is dark brown or not but that's my current colour.
009. Long or short? Over the shoulders or so
010. Loud or Quiet? Usually I'm a quiet person, but I have a loud voice, that always give me trouble.
011. Sweats or Jeans? Hah, both
012. Phone or Camera? Both too, but I don't use phones so maybe camera?
013. Health freak? Kinda, yeah ;_;
014. Drink or Smoke? Nope. Neither of them.
016. Eat or Drink? *scratches head* both? XD
017. Piercings? 4 holes on my ears, I had one on my nose but it got infected a couple of days later when I pierced it so I had to lose it, I don't regret it though...
018. Tattoos? Ugh...no. I wanted one but I dropped the idea because I'm scared of pain...

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane ? Yeah. several times.
020. Been in a car accident ? Yes, when I was a child
021. Been in a fist fight ? LOL of course...xD

FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? In my ears when I was a baby
023. First best friend? Can't remember.
025. First award? Uhm...I won a poetry contest at my school if i recall...
026. First crush? I don't remember :/ maybe some cartoon character? lol
028. First big vacation? When I was 8, I went to Disneyland Paris ^^
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? My mom.
030. Last person you texted? Uhh...I didn't text in a while, I don't use my phone.
031. Last person you watched a movie with? My parents when we went to see District 9.
032. Last food you ate? some spanish food...potatoes in herbal sauce thingy, can't explain XD
033. Last movie you watched? mmm...I don't remember O_o but it wasn't District 9...
034. Last song you listened to? some song from the Smash Bros Brawl OST lol i don't know the name, Polyanna I guess *blame Winamp*
035. Last thing you bought? Reimu nendoroid! *_* *awaits her arrival*
036. Last person you hugged? I didn't hug someone in a while.

FAVES:
037. Food? Junk food! XD
038. Drinks? I love malta (thanks Yesi for this!) and coca-cola the most, but I also love tea.
039. Clothing? something comfortable that won't make the center of attention in the middle of street so normal clothing i guess... ya know, jeans, sweaters, t-shirts...all that jazz. I love dresses too.
040. Book? Neverending Story
041. Music? J-pop, remixes, OST's...uhm...a bit of everything I guess.
042. Flower? Roses!
043. Colors? Blue hands down XD but i like white, purple and black as well.
044. Movies? War of the worlds and Pirates of caribbean and I dunno, i like that many that i can't remember
045. Shoes? Those of the rhyno brand...can't remember the name of them
046. Subjects? Literature, art and music.

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [ ] kissed in the snow
048. [ ] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [x] done something you've regretted ( we all do, right?)
056. [ ] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret XD;;;
058. [x] pretended to be happy (hah...)
059. [ ] met someone who changed your life
060. [ ] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country (uhm...no, it was this year when I left, I'm sure O_O)
062. [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing (i do this everyday )
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [x] stay single the whole year (orz...wish I had a boyfriend...)

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? Nope, it's soon
068. Drinking? Nada.
069. I'm about to? Finish typing this and continue colouring a pic.
070. Listening to? Moar Smash Bros soundtrack D:
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? Being lazy as I always do...oh and looking for a job...but that's one of my daily chores so meh...nothing.
072. Waiting for? My packages to arrive! (Flandre plushie and Reimu nendo <3)

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? Not for now...but who knows
074. Want to get married? aww...yeah...I'd like
075. Careers in mind? Does looking for a decent job counts? Because if so, I want a decent job ;_;

WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes? Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? I like tall guys and for girls...uhm...neither short, neither really tall O_O
078. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic plz
079. Nice stomach or nice arms? Stomach
080. Sensitive or loud? Sensitive
081. Hookup or relationship? I don't understand this very well...
082. Troublemaker or hesitant? No idea O_o

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts? Yeah...I lost a pair of contacts the very same moment I bought them ;_; *fails so much*
084. Ran away from home? Yes...
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? No.
086. Killed somebody? No.
087. Broken someone's heart? sadly, yeah
088. Been arrested? No, for god's sake O_O
089. Cried when someone died? A lot U_U

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? eeeeh....nooo....wish i could, really, but I can't cuz I'm a failure of a person.
091. Miracles? Sometimes...
092. Love at first sight? Nope.
093. Heaven? I used to believe, but not right now.
094. Santa Claus? *snorts*
095. Sex on the first date? <_<;;; people can do whatever they want
096. Kiss on the first date? Yeah that would be nice...(if i ever had a date, ugh T_T *fails again*)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Uhm...not really I'd like to be with a lot of people but I know that's impossible (considering how alone i am and how far away are my internet friends...)
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Sadly, no. I can't complain, I have a good life, I have everything I have, I might be selfish but I'm not happy cuz this loneliness is killing me.
099. Do you believe in God? I'm agnostic, so I don't believe completely in God, but I believe there is "something else"
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people and why? I tag whoever who wants to make this. (i think i spelled this wrong)

Ok, i feel the big need to write about some stuff about my art that was mentioned before but just to refresh everybodies memories. (might delete this later if i feel the need of it)

1. Not so long ago someone said that I should stop doing this or that style because wouldn't help me improve at all (especially since I draw a lot of Sonic styled pics lately).
I wanna say about it that my art is my art, and I appreciate the concern about improving, every artist in the world wants to improve somehow during their lives, but yeah, my art is my art! my style is my style and nothing is gonna change it. Yeah, I must admit, I have a generic style for some stuff but it's the way I like it. I'm always very influenced by the artists I admire at the moment, my tastes change from time to time cuz I'm human and today I'm interested on a certain artist and next month will be another, and that will change my point of view of my art and the way of doing my things, and even trying to do stuff like them because that's the way I think and that's the way I like doing my stuff.
I might be right for some, and might be wrong for others, but that's the way I am and that's why I like to do, so everybody should respect it samewise I respect the rest of the world. My talent is my talent and I will waste on whatever i like.

2. I really despise comparisons. I mentioned it like a thousand times but I'm mentioning it again. If my art happens to be similar to other artist artwork, it might be because of two reasons: 1- I tried to draw in the artist style or tried to do something similar to them. In that case I WILL ALWAYS GIVE THE PROPER CREDIT TO THE ARTIST AND EVEN LINK TO THE PICTURE ITSELF JUST TO MAKE IT SURE. (and i put it caps so just everybody can read it). and 2- If a picture of mine happens to be similar to another person and I didn't mention it, then that's A COINCIDENCE. Because you know? My art is NOT perfect and I'm not a perfect person either. And since everything in this world has been invented already it's very difficult to be original nowadays. Also, I get inspiration from tons and tons of other artworks all around, and sometimes my mind can go wild and make me draw a picture with similar background or similar colours to another one without me even noticing it. In that case, PLEASE DON'T BE OFFENDED. As I said before, if I don't credit the person for the artwork then it was just a coincidence. And I'm being very sincere (as I always do).

3. Rules about using my art: In any way my art cannot be copied, edited, redistributed, cropped, whatever, etc. WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. If you wanna use my artwork for youtube, websites, logos, banners, or even for copy with the purpouse of practise, it doesn't hurt asking me first. 90% of the times I grant permission to use my art, because yeah, everybody has the right to learn and some people likes to copy my pictures in order to learn (some of my closest friends did) as we all artists did, but the point of this that asking is not gonna hurt me and I will most likely will say yes unless the matter of using my art will be very extreme.

4. DO NOT CLAIM MY ART AS YOURS. This is major art-thievering and nobody likes that. We don't want problems here.

5. No, IM NOT TAKING REQUESTS. Never did, never will. So please stop asking about it.

6. Another important thing is that never remove the watermark on my works. And yeah, if you ever used my art without my permission, at least a link back to the original will be good and will stop you from having problems.

7. Got questions? Don't hesitate to ask me. I'm nice and I'll try to answer in the most politely way possible. Also, I like to help when I can.

And I think that's all for now. I hope I didn't forget anything Hope I didn't sound rude or anything but I just wanted to make it clear before someone accuse me of doing something again.

Have a nice day and thank you if you ever got this far reading. (Might do an spanish version later) (Tal vez haga una version en español despues).

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Maybe some of you have noticed that yesterday and today i had my gallery empty, I wanna apologize for that, but yesterday was a horrible day for me. Today I'm feeling a bit better, so I decided to put back everything again...well I don't think many people noticed, and the ones who did perhaps unwatched me I think it wasn't a good idea to hid everything...well but anyways, I'm here again, I just feel really ignored, sad, alone and depressed lately. To be honest, it sting me very much seeing that a lot of people and people whom I watch receive a lot of love lately for some reason or another, and I get barely nowadays...don't get me wrong, I do get love, and I'm grateful for that but i can't stop thinking that I did anything wrong and thanks to that im being ignored, especially when I comment and fave or whatever I do, and I never get anything back...especially from some people i love...I dunno if you guys felt that way sometime, and please don't be saying that "hey but at least you got popularity and bla bla" because that's not what I'm talking about pageviews are not everything in the world, they are just a mere number. So I dunno if I did something wrong, I would like to apologize again, maybe I'm just being a jerk lately and I didn't notice...oh well hope you can bear with me one more time if you are reading these lines I wanna say thank you, I just hope everything can be like it was before and stop feeling so ignored and lonely lately...
Thank you again and I'm sorry.
Please no hard words since I'm not in the best of moods and a little support would be good since I'm not passing through a good season in my life right now.
PS: not sure if somebody unwatched me while i was away...ugh my bad T_T im such a smartass sometimes...
PPS: oh and this is not a cry for attention or whatever, I do appreciate if you people want to comment more on my work, but you don't have to stop your business just because I feel this way thought I feel really honored and grateful, I would feel bad if I'm interfering in your lives just keep doing your stuff and everybody is happy

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